Tuesday, November 24, 2009

The madness that goes on in my head.

Trying to document a slice of my thoughtStream...
(Note, Left to right does not matter, the streams are simultaneous, sometimes even the top-bottom precedence may overlap.)


Stream 0
(Conscious 1)
Stream 1
(Conscious 2)
Stream 2
(visual - thought)
Stream 3
(auditory)
Right, am I writing it down correctly?Stupid TDs and TRs, Google still couldn't refine their interface properly!Forest night, superimposed with a google logoLike a night in the forest

yeah, it's hard to keep track of this mess
Yeah this is tough, ooh look, my neighbour is staring at my screenMountains, a tangle of light-paths, buzzing with thought motesLike the mountains in springtime
sometimes it's parallel processingHide? Don't bother? ... Don't bother.ahh, walk in the rain, memory recall! Tangle of lights straightening, fadinglike a walk in the rain
other times it's time-sharing... freaky!Heh, what if that was the boss?stuck in memory recall
superimposed image of boss
like a storm in the desert
Boss? Where is he? Nope, not nearby...Meh, still wouldn't have bothered...underwater... (NSFW)like a sleepy blue ocean
Why is that guy covering his face with a hanky?Sit properly, is the headphone wire stuck?(more NSFW)... headphone wire, extreme close up.you fill up my senses
Cold? Swine flu? right... funny.where is it stuck? examine, there! yank yank!momentary image of a pig, then masked doctors in lab coatscome fill me again...
put on your glasses, you'll fry your eyes looking on the screen!Yeah, like the glasses would help if it's bound to happen.the live version's video, John Denver looks weird...applause eh? Right! live version... coo!
Time-sharing again... How is one supposed to actually represent this?That sounds fatalistic, how unlike me!accidents, death, inevitability, 2012 movie clippings.Jazz, nice,
A tree with the conscious node animated in time?2012? That's utter crap!Fretboard fingering positions,mind following the guitar
Secondary streams?They come and go...
Not 2012, I mean yes that too, but timeline?
Animated graph with flickering nodes... tree without a beginning or an end...guitar...
Yeah, there will be only one 2012 the yearWhat aboout alternate date systems?calendar, 2012, blur, Jesus Christ, blur, flickering 7 segment displays...Enter drums, guitar still being followed... talking... talking??
Damn, I'm losing coherence.talking to me? Nah...blur, colleagues behind head, fretboard, blur... too many images too fast.Huh? colleagues talking... guitar...
Okay, stop, enough, enough. StopWrite that down you fool...Blog page with this post... random reader.lyrics... mind not following...
Stop that musicStop writing too...Desktop... winamp... meditative white...momentary blank...

There are many more subtler substreams and momentary flashes, can't follow... too fast, too fine, and most importantly, too weird (sick? raw? vulgar? choose a word).


NesQuarX
What? Don't you ever follow your own thoughts from a Third Person POV?
Huh?
Oh...

13 comments:

  1. This crap is really awesome.. not much w.r.t it's sequence but w.r.t the "third person" observer's analysis!

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  2. :D That's the thing which is the toughest to be.

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  3. wohoooo................the post is as unconventional as you are............kudos...

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  4. hahahahhahahahahahha.............i meant kudos to you..........

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  5. nice going...must have taken a lot of time and hard work too get this done..

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  6. Time, very less, this table represents a slice of hardly a minute... Took a few more minutes to actually unravel and pen down. But yeah, did take an insane amount of thinking to actually identify the individual threads and streams and note what they were thinking... in the same head.

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  7. THOUGHT TRAILS!
    interesting!

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  8. ouch! Just bothered reading through the entire thing. How fast do you write? (or was that directly typed?)

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    1. It was written down in cues, mnemonics, and after the writing was over, the mnemonics were reconstructed.

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    2. well, but even then, penning down the thoughts needs yet another parallel thinking!

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